Why CanT He TelL Me ??

i my gosh this is so sad at end..... Take Some Time and actually Read this , this is a GUY TALKING...
ITS 7TH GRADE...
I stared at the girl next to me...She was my so called 'best friend'... Istared at her... Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But shedidn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she walked up to meand asked me for the notes she had missed the day before... And I handedthem to her... She said 'thanks'.... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... Iwanted to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be 'justfriends'... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't knowwhy...
IT'S JUNIOR YEAR...
My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in tears... Mumblingon and on about how her love had broken her heart... She asked me to comeover because she didn't want to be alone... So I did... As I sat next to heron the sofa... I stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2hours... A Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She decided to goto sleep... She looked at me.. Said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on thecheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want tobe 'just friends'... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don'tknow why...
IT'S SENIOR YEAR...
The day before prom.... She walked to my locker... 'My date is sick' shesaid... He's not going to go... Well... I didn't have a date and in 7thgrade... We made a promise that if neither of us had dates... We'd gotogether just as 'best friends'... And so we did...IT'S PROM NIGHT...After everything was over with... I was standing at her front door step... Istared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her to be mine... But shedoesn't think of me like that... And I know it... Then she said 'I had thebest time... Thanks!'... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted totell her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be 'just friends'... Ilove her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...
IT'S GRADUATION DAY...
A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I couldblink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect body... Floatedlike an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I wanted her to be mine...But she doesn't think of me that way... And I know it... Before everyonewent home... She came to me in her smock and hat... And cried as I huggedher... Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said 'you're my bestfriend'... 'Thanks!'... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tellher.. I wanted her to know that I wanted to be more than 'just friends'... Ilove her but I'm too shy... And I don't know why...
IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER....
Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is getting marriedin now... I watched her say 'I do' an drive off to her new life... Marriedto another man... I wanted her to be mine... But she didn't see me likethat... And I knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me andsaid 'You came!... Thanks!'... And she kissed me on the cheek... I wanted totell her... I wantd her to know that I didn't want to be 'just friends'... Ilove her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...
YEARS PASSED...
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'... Atthe service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high schoolyears... This is what it said... 'I stare at him... Wishing he was mine...But he doesn't notice me like that.... And I know it... I wanted to tellhim... I wanted him to know... That I don't want to be 'just friends'... Ilove him but I'm just too shy.... And I don't know why... I wish he wouldtell me he loved me'... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and Icried...